Tea Time

Since the day I moved to Los Angeles I've been aware that I need to network. To figure out this town, this industry, this life. I've been aware that I have to meet people who are people, or who know people, who want to work with me. That like my work and who need my skills. It's such an odd and different perspective on working than I ever had before I moved here.

So, for the past five years, I've been working on it. Networking. In grad school at UCLA it was taking time to go out to the bar after class at 11pm when I would much rather have gone home to bed. Then it became keeping up with the people I graduated with. Social media, Facebook, Twitter, blogs, emails, it's time consuming. I started a writing group to network with like minded writers. I went to social events and screenings and panels and did it all as much as I could. I struck up conversations with people in line or next to me. I exchanged cards and responded to Linked In requests even though I still don't really see the point of Linked In. I met for coffee and exchanged scripts and gave detailed notes and sometimes, got notes back. Sometimes. And never detailed.

And so, for the last year or so, I've been trying to rethink my strategies. I've been working to network more efficiently, more effectively. And, it's finally paying off. And I've realized, it's a lot more enjoyable.

I've figured out, for me, that it's more about the quality of the networking than the quantity. If I spend three hours at a mixer and come away with two cards of people who've maybe written something or are wanting to write, that does me no good. But if I spend an hour having coffee with an old acquaintance, and we leave having had a wonderful conversation and agreeing to work together, I call it a win. And recently, I've been trying to do much more coffee and much less mixing. (Also, coffee is way cheaper than crappy drinks and I'll gladly buy tons of coffee to sit and actually hear the conversation rather than try to teeter on heels, straining to hear snippets of talk.) Also, I'm not saying that I won't keep going to mixers or panels or screenings but only if I want to. Not because I think they'll help me find the keys to the city.

Flashforward to this weekend. To Saturday. To the morning I spent having coffee and tea with a friend from film school. We'd kept up since graduating but it was becoming harder and harder to carve out in person time. Facebook and Twitter kept us abreast of jobs and families and relationships but it's never the same. So we plopped down Saturday morning to catch up. And it was lovely. And comfortable. And enlightening. And such a wonderful friendship experience with a sweet side of networking. I love that.

Then Saturday afternoon I put on my best "fussy" outfit (that's what the invitation called for, fussy attire -- I wore bright colors, big dangling earrings and high heels) and headed out to another friends Women in Entertainment Tea Party.

I wasn't sure what to expect but my expectations were blown out of the water just the same. Over the course of four hours I had fascinating conversations, met women from all facets of the entertainment industry, laughed, told stories, listened, ate really good food, drank tea, exchanged contact information, and ended the evening with a teacup full of really good champagne. I mean, seriously, you can't ask for a better day.

And the best part? I didn't just "network" like people in Hollywood keep telling us to do. I met people. Real live people, women, with jobs and dreams and interesting stories. I made connections. Not just business connections but life connections over topics as diverse as neighborhoods, musical tastes, daily work trials, teaching, comedy, even neighborhood watch clubs!

Also? I made friends. I didn't just exchange cards with people who might or might never acknowledge me again. By the time I got home Saturday night I had several friend requests, new Twitter followers, and last night, one of the women I met emailed me a draft of a skit. This is real people. This isn't lip service.

This is women coming together and being intent on making relationships and helping one another and being awesome, together. This is lifting each other up and celebrating accomplishments and sharing stories. This is awesome. This is what I've been looking for since I got to L.A.!

How many of these new friendships will continue? I can't predict the future. But I do know that there are women out there who are looking for the same thing as me -- a different way to make it in this town, in this industry, in this life. Frankly, just in life in general. And I love that we've started to find one another. Because, really, in life, when you find your people, your community, that's half the battle.

The Surprise 40th Party

For much of last winter and spring Angela and I worked on a project. That project? Throwing my mom and dad a surprise 40th anniversary party in June. It was quite the undertaking. First, we had to

make sure that it stayed a surprise because my parents are very anti-anything that puts the focus too much on them. This isn't a bad thing it's just how things are. They don't want big celebrations for birthdays or retirements. (I guess I got all the non-humble genes in the family, i.e. birthday month, et al.)

Second, we had to coordinate with field operatives on the ground in Michigan because we wouldn't be back in Howell until shortly before the party in June. So when we started planning back in January, we enlisted the help of some wonderful friends and family members. We had Susie sneak over and raid their Christmas card book for addresses. We had Julia gather decorations. We shipped hundreds of mason jars to Susie's house. We ordered mason jar cookie cutters and sent them to Marie. We put Doris in Canada in charge of the cake and so on and so forth. It was quite the six months.

Angela and I wanted to do this for our parents for several reasons. One, they have been married 40 years. That's something awesome to celebrate. Two, they do so much for all of us. And I do mean all of us. Family and friends and daughters alike. We wanted to celebrate them, the people they are and the large extended family they've created during their lifetime together. And third, who doesn't like a big old party? Exactly!

We settled on a theme:

Having a Ball since 1973 (hence the mason jars, Ball jars to be exact) and set to work. And next thing we knew we had over 100 people set to join us and countless people volunteering to help, make food, decorate, donate time and money to the endeavor. Their wedding anniversary is technically June 2nd but Angela and I wouldn't be there then. So we settled on June 29th.

The two weeks leading up to the party when Angela and I were in Michigan were busy. Harried. Crazy. We had to organize and prepare for this party. This 100+ guest party without letting my parents in on the secret. There were lots of fibs and little white lies. Lots of secret trips to Target and "sightseeing" that never took place. Instead we were coordinating with caterers, ordering drinks, hanging decorations, et cetera et cetera.

So did it work?

Yes!

We ended up surprising them. They thought they were meeting Angela, Jeff, Julia and I at Jeff and Julia's house to go to a play about Ernie Harwell in Detroit. (And yes, we eventually did get to see the play!) The rain that threatened held off and as they pulled into the driveway, this is what they saw:

Family and friends from near and far waiting just for them. To celebrate them. And from the looks on their faces, I think they were surprised. And a little overwhelmed.


Did the day go perfectly? No. There were too many baked beans. We didn't get as many photographs as I'd have liked. We never did turn on the music. But overall? I think it was a smashing success. Mostly because my parents enjoyed the day. They talked with friends and family they see every day and those they rarely see (Noelle, Angela's and my college roommate came in from Chicago and my parents hadn't seen her in over eight years - that was awesome).

But we did it. We pulled off a surprise party for my parents. We celebrated their 40 years of marriage and family. We celebrated them. And we had an awesome time doing it. Here's to the next 40 years, Mom and Dad!

(NOTE: Yes, this blog post is a little late. Over four months late. I kept meaning to write it right after the party but life kept jumping in the way. In Michigan there's always something more interesting to do than sit behind the laptop. There are bonfires and baseball games and grandneighbors next door and people to hang out with. But also? Five days after the party, the party both my Grandpa and Grandma Boutell were able to come to, my Grandpa went into the hospital and a few short weeks later we buried him. Just over a month later we buried my Grandma. So, the blog was not top on my list of priorities. But, I wanted to get some of it down, some of the memories on the page, as I always do. So, here it is. Better late than never!)

Progress, slow sweet progress

It was almost a year ago when Sonora asked to see my portfolio of scripts. It was back in April when I started writing the script. It was June when I sent her the first draft. It was September when we had our first table read. And now? Now it's November. But soon it will be December.

And in December it looks like we'll have a staged reading.

Yep. Another table read. But a little different this time. Okay, a lot different.

September was awesome. We had actors and friends sitting around Sonora's big dining room table she bought just for that night. We had champagne and good food and conversation. We had a reading. Scripts in hand, laughs produced, smiles brightened. It was awesome.

But over the last two weeks things have been happening. I've been rewriting, yes, I'm always rewriting. But we've also added another producer to the mix, involved Sonora's lovely wife Dasha and my lovely sister Angela, and we're a team. We're a team who've met each Sunday to brainstorm and plan and move forward with this. And it's exciting.

Again, I don't want to make major announcements here. Yet. We're still in the planning stages. We're calling theaters and contacts and friends. We're trying to get people to commit to reading the parts (all new cast members except Sonora) who have some name recognition. Like people you may have heard of. Like really exciting people. We're trying to get people to get people who have connections or deals or contacts at studios to come listen (again, some people you may have heard of or at least heard of their projects). And when I say we? I really mean Sonora and Devon (our new producing partner! yay!). Because my job is still to sit here, at the keyboard, and make the script better. Each and every day.

It's an interesting process. I know the script will change a million different ways in the future if this project continues. I know I may or may not be a part of that. I'm okay with that. But for right now? It's all mine. It's all me. And that's terrifying. And exhilarating.

I'm not changing huge chunks of the script. I'm finessing things. I'm making things funnier, better I hope. Because that's what rewriting is all about.

So...things are moving forward. And it's exciting. People believe in this project, in me. And I can't tell you what that means to me. After all these years, after all these hours alone here in front of this screen. It's amazing. It's amazing to sit in a room with people and talk about theaters and blow dryers (you'll see, I'm funny!) and talent (i.e., the cast) and Hollywood people. It's truly amazing.

But for now? For now I have to open up the file on my computer again and get back to work. Because without pages, there's nothing to read...

October is over

That's right, the month of me, the month of my birth, is over. And, part of it was all about me as I wanted it to be. Part of it wasn't. (See going home to Michigan for my grandmother's funeral, see working as a freelance editor and being at the mercy of others schedules and needs, see dealing with college students, see a nice little recurrence of vertigo).

But...I did really focus on doing things for myself. I was conscious about what I ate, what I drank (I was very conscious of having to buy a new bottle of tequila last week because the last one was empty), and what I did. I moved more. I walked almost every day. I did my squat and plank challenges. Yesterday I did 200 squats. In a row. I have never done that before. It wasn't easy, but it certainly wasn't impossible. And I'm going to do it again this month! I also held a plank for about 2.5 minutes. Not the 5 the challenge said I should be able to hold at this point but it's a lot longer than I could hold a plank on October first (about 10 seconds).

Will I keep going in November? Yes. Though baseball is over (damn Red Sox), the leaves are crispy and falling (even here in Los Angeles), and the mornings and nights are much cooler, the sun still shines and every day is still another day I'm alive. A day to work, to write, to move, to laugh, to love.

I'm going to do an ab challenge, the same squat challenge, and my walking challenge this month. I'm going to look forward to some time with friends and time alone, at my desk or with a good book (Detroit True Crime anyone?). I'm going to look forward to Christmas and going home in just a few weeks. I'm going to remember that even though October is over, I can still focus on me. And that's an okay thing to do. 

My Rebel

I am obsessed with taking pictures. If you know me, you know this. And more than likely, you've been subject to my shutterbugness. I have several cameras of my own, 35mms that use film, a couple of digital cameras that don't, and an iPhone that does a pretty amazing job for a phone. I love love love taking pictures.

And, just as with anything I love doing, I want to be come better at it. I want to be a better writer, I want to be a better cook, I want to be better at everything, including photography. And part of that requires having better equipment. So, for my birthday, my awesome parents and Angela got me a new camera. My first DSLR camera. A Canon Rebel T3.

All my life I've dreamed of having a real professional camera, one with a big lens you could change and move. Seriously, I've wanted one since I can remember. But cameras are expensive and when you're not a photojournalist, unnecessary. So I made do. But next year Angela and I are going to Europe. And I want to take pictures. So many pictures. Amazing pictures. And not just with my phone. And did I mention my parents are awesome? Cause they are.

And the camera came with something cool, a three-hour class on beginning photography led by a Canon employee. So off Angela and went on Sunday (yes, I made her go because the camera is overwhelming and we both need to learn because I'd like a photo or two of me while in Europe - I mean it took me an hour to get the strap on the thing!) to the camera class. There were about 20 people there and it was awesome. The teacher went through all of the features on our cameras, had us put them on the best settings and then taught us things about F-stops and exposure and raw files and how to get the camera to take really amazing photos. I can't wait to go back and take another class!

So far we've only taken photos of the trees in our yard and each other but over the Thanksgiving break we're going to go on some adventures to practice. I'm so excited. And watch out, if you get any where near me in the next few months you might become my next subject!

Outer Space, or a Field Trip with Sixth Graders!

Two weeks ago today I was just stepping off a school bus. Now, as a former middle school teacher and as someone who lives with a middle school teacher, I've ridden my share of buses since I graduated from public school. They're big, they're yellow, they're bumpy, they're still smelly (especially when filled with sixth grade boys) and they're all driven by people who are not paid enough money to do what they do.

I was stepping off a school bus because six hours prior I had stepped onto one and been driven to the California Science Center along with Angela, another sixth grade teacher, a counselor at their school, several moms and one other sister, and 79 sixth graders. It was Angela's first field trip (our team golf outings never counted in Yuma because there were only a handful of kids and they always met us at the course and got picked up) and, due to her planning and hard work, it was awesome.

At the Science Center we toured the space shuttle Endeavor, the exhibits, ate lunch, listened to a real live astronaut speak about being up in Endeavor, and of course, raided the gift shop. All 90 plus of us. And it went smoothly and with only minor incidents. (The group with a mother attached wasn't lost really, they were just still absorbed in the hurricane simulator while we were looking for them so we could leave!)

I didn't have my own group of kids, I was Angela's chaperon. My job was to be her second set of eyes and ears, to hike back to the bus and schlep all the lunches to the grassy area where the kids could eat, to keep an eye on chaperons who seemed nervous or weren't used to watching out for so many kids at once, and to make sure we all got back on the bus. A lot of counting was involved. Luckily we had a really cool bus driver who was also really good at counting. (Seriously, if you've never been a chaperon you have no idea the counting you do. You do not want to be the adult who loses a child. All it takes is one to ruin the whole day.)

Here are some things I observed/learned/overheard on our day together:

• Sixth grade boys, on a whole, don't throw the ball to girls during silent ball. But those who do? (And there was one who did that morning...) Very, very smart.
• Also? Silent ball is not very silent in sixth grade. 
• Also? Did you know you can change the rules to silent ball mid-game? Apparently you can. We almost had a Lord of the Flies situation. I was ready to bolt. Every man for himself, right? 
• On the bus I sat next to two young men who were having a very serious conversation about how Eminem (yes, the rapper who I figured was too old school for them, I mean really, who is introducing these kids to Eminem because it's not Ryan Seacrest) is so bad because he's short. (For the record, according to Google, Eminem is 5'8" - I would have pegged him a little taller but then again, I'm a fan. Unlike a certain group of Los Angeles middle schoolers.)
•  At one point, midway through our exploration of the Endeavor exhibit, our group acquired an elderly man in a blue shirt. He seemed harmless, enjoyed looking over everything, and seemed oblivious to the fact that he was surrounded by screeching preteens. I figured he couldn't hear us. And I was glad we'd packed the extra school lunches no one would claim back at the school.
• Fake fart contests are a popular way to spend a bus ride.
• More than one kid didn't believe me when I tried telling her that what we were looking at was the real space shuttle. That had been up in space. 
  

They were incredulous. They were blown away. And frankly? That's what made the whole crazy day worth it. The fact that they got to see something that had been up in space. That they got to touch something that had been up in space. That they got to dream, for a few hours, about what it might be like to be up in space. How cool is that?

For me science class was never very interesting. I still don't know the different levels of the earth or why protons and neutrons and electrons are important. But I love learning about things like space and flight and zero gravity. I sat transfixed during the videos they showed that day, wondering myself what it might be like to be in one of those suits, up there looking down on everything.

And I love that there are teachers like Angela who spend their own time and some of their own money to take their kids on field trips like this one. I love that. I can't wait for the next one!

As Birthday Month Wraps Up...

It has been a long few months. Cross-country flights. Funerals. New jobs. Old jobs. Underemployment. Finding freelance work. Colds. Flu. Sadness. Joy. It's just been a lot.

But it's also been my birthday month for the last 24 days. And I love birthday month. Usually we use it as an excuse for everything, or a reason. But this month has been quieter. Much. We did celebrate my birthday in Michigan for the first time in 7 years, at the beginning of the month. Friends brought food to the house the weekend of the funeral and we decided to stick candles in the yummy chocolate cake we were gifted. I loved being able to celebrate with my parents. Beyond that, we didn't do much here in Los Angeles. A few days before the big day Angela reached out to some friends to organize my birthday evening. People had plans and couldn't make it so instead she surprised me with tickets to a really great play I'd been wanting to see downtown, THE SUNSHINE BOYS. A Neil Simon revival with Judd Hirsch, Danny Devito and Justin Bartha.

We ended up making an evening of it. Heading downtown after doing presents on Skype with my parents, we got really good tacos from a stand right there at the theater and ate overlooking the city's fountains. It was exactly what I think a Los Angeles evening should be and I loved it!

However, something else happened on my birthday that's never happened before. Even though the evening with friends didn't work out, some of my friends had a plan. I got a call a couple days before my birthday inviting me to Disneyland! I was kind of in shock. I know for many individuals in southern California, going to Disneyland is like going to the park, or the beach. But for me? It's well, like going to Disneyland!

I'd been once before, back the year after we moved here, with Angela and my parents. We did the whole two park shebang and it was a fun day. An expensive, fun, tiring day. Yes, you can do it all in one day if A) you don't have little kids, B) you hustle and I mean HUSTLE, and C) you don't mind being exhausted from a good 14 hours walking on concrete and standing in lines eating really expensive sugar all day. But we did it and we had fun. I still have the group photo of us all on my bookcase. However, after growing up with Disney World as the platinum standard, Disneyland failed to live up to my memories. So we hadn't been back.

Fast forward four years. Sonora called and asked and, I mean, it's my birthday right? And who doesn't want to go to Disneyland on her birthday??? So off we went!

So remember that checklist from a paragraph ago? None of that happened. And that made it a perfect day. First off, we got there about 10. There were no lines, we parked relatively close (I mean it is October, that probably helps with it not being as crowded), and breezed right in. We stopped for some pictures and headed right to Town Hall where Sonora's wonderful wife Dasha (who couldn't go with us but planned the day!) had told us to get a birthday button. And we did.

No, the birthday button doesn't let you skip lines or get your free ice cream or anything like that. But guess what? It was a magical button and I hated to take it off at the end of the day. I was a little hesitant at first to pin it on but I figured, when in Disneyland...so off we went, me and my button. And immediately, the magic started. Walking down Main Street people started saying Happy Birthday Sarah. Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday.

Now, I love Disney's customer service. They do it up right, always have in my book. Every time we've stayed at a resort or visited a park or even gone to a store, they're awesome. I love that about the company. But last Friday? It was even cooler. Every time I came into contact with a park employee, they wished me a happy birthday. And it wasn't just employees, random other park goers got in on the act. And that encouraged me to do it as well. As we waited for our lunch reservations, I noticed the woman next to me had a button on. We chatted briefly about sharing the same birthday and found out we were born at almost the same time, just a few years apart.

Sonora and I had a great day. We took our time wandering around the park. We jumped onto the Pirates ride because there wasn't really a line. Even the wait at the Haunted Mansion was minimal. We spent more time searching for these amazing rice krispie treats than standing in line. We took the Nemo submarine ride which was cute and new, just to remember it's fun to act like a kid again. We had an amazing lunch at the Blue Bayou restaurant complete with raspberry light up lemonade and

flourless Mickey cake that was beyond amazing.We watched a young girl do the entire Mary Poppins routine on the sidelines at the parade and get pulled into the act by Mary herself. We took photos outside the castle and bought souvenirs inside. And then? Only a few hours after we'd arrived, we headed back out the gates, way ahead of any of the crowds. We took our time and soaked it all in and realized we'd spent the perfect amount of time. No sunburns were had, no blisters were formed, no sugar comas induced (though I did eat that giant frosted rice krispie treat and my birthday dessert,
don't judge).

So do I recommend heading to Disneyland on your birthday if you ever get the chance? Absolutely. How fun to just forget the outside world and go to what truly may be the Happiest Place on Earth for a few hours. Go with an amazing friend. Forget calorie counts and cell phones and walk five miles without realizing it and wish everyone else with a birthday button a happy day.

Sonora & me

Holding Her Close and Remembering

One week ago today I was wearing the same brown dress, the same brown sandals and the same tear stained look I've worn way too much over the past 75 days. And I was, once again, for the third time, carrying the casket of one of my grandparents and laying it inside a hearse. 

Grandma Millie had gotten pneumonia back in November. She hadn't felt well in quite some time before that and she'd moved into an assisted care facility shortly before. She never really recovered fully from this last illness. She talked being done with life, being in pain, being unhappy. She hadn't golfed in years, she couldn't drive anymore. Yes, she still played cards with the girls and sent cards to us grandkids and laughed and complained about sports. But she was ready to pack it in and go see Grandpa. So this summer, when she entered hospice care, we knew the end would come sooner rather than later. 

Last week that end came. And as Angela and I boarded our forth flight to Detroit since June, I thought about the fact that I no longer have any grandparents. For a girl who grew up with six grandparents (and a slew of family friends we called grandparents), this is going to be quite a change. 

First Lieutenant Mildred Ludwig of the United States Army, 1945

Grandma lived a whole other life before any of us still alive knew her. She was a Registered Nurse in the United States Army at the end of World War II. She accompanied war brides home on ships. She traveled. She worked as a nurse until 1993. She married my grandfather in a ceremony in a place no one can quite identify. It was my grandfather's third wedding, her first and only. With that marriage she gained two stepsons (my Dad and my uncle Terry). And then she would go on to have two more children later in life (my aunt Gloria and my uncle Rich).

I didn't spend as much time with Grandma Millie as I did with my other grandparents. She lived in Lansing, almost an hour's drive from us, and it was usually birthdays, holidays and special occasions that brought us together. Those were good times, yes. It just wasn't as frequent as I saw the others. When we would get together there would usually be pork roast or turkey, everyone gathered around the table, a football or basketball or golf game playing in the background on the television. Inevitably, Uncle Rich would pull out the big five-quart container of vanilla ice cream after dinner even if we were all stuffed. The cards would find their way to the center of the table and we'd play and laugh and talk late into the night. We'd settle in and it felt like we'd always been there. I loved that.

I also loved how much she supported what us grandkids did. She was always the first to send a birthday card or give a Christmas gift with a little something to help us on our way. I don't remember a lot about the State Finals I played in my senior year of high school but I do remember Grandma and Grandpa finding me in the parking lot of the golf course at MSU and her handing me a box. Inside were little golf golf bag earrings that she had me put on right there for luck. I wore those earrings last Monday.

My dad was technically Millie's stepson. We were technically her step grandchildren. But not once do I ever remember her saying this or insinuating this. We were hers. We were loved and cared for just as much as the others. We were never forgotten. The same can be said of her. I send a lot of letters and cards, and this morning, I thought about my list. It has dwindled dramatically this summer. I thought about how much I'll miss seeing her smile and getting a big old bear hug from her when I go home to Michigan to visit. But, more than anything, I know she's much happier now. I know she's feeling better and in no pain and with grandpa and her beloved brother, Ed.

However, I also know that life is different now. This Christmas when I go home, there will be no grandparents to visit or wrap presents for. There will be no wine or Hot Damn or golf shirts to buy for Grandma Millie. There will be no bubble bath to buy for Grandma Bette. There will be no Moose Munch or snacks to buy for Grandpa Jim. But that doesn't mean they're forgotten. That doesn't mean that we can't remember. We can look through photo albums and laugh over stories at Christmas dinner. We can hold them close. And I will. So close. Just as they held me close for the past 35 years. 

It's all about me

It's October. Yeah. I know. It was just July. Or maybe August. But I have no idea where September went that's for sure. But anyway, it's October. That means two things.

1) There will be postseason baseball on my TV soon. And...
2) It's my birthday month.

Yep. It's true. I don't just have a birthday anymore. I have a birthday month. I don't know when this first started but a little bit ago. Sometimes it's hard to celebrate on your actual birthday. Sometimes you have to go to work, stay late, go to the dentist, people can't come out on a Wednesday, blah blah blah. So you stretch your birthday for a day here or there. Celebrate on the weekend. Or go to lunch the following week with a friend. It's all good. And BAM! before you know it, you've got yourself a birthday month.

And October is mine.

So what happens during my month? Well, sometimes there are birthday dinners or parties or the aforementioned lunches. Sometimes there's a reason to go shopping when you don't really need anything. It's a good way to justify going for ice cream or using those extra birthday coupons you get for free whatchamajiggles. And there's the anticipation of gifts and cards or nowadays, a hundred Facebook posts.

But this month I want to do something different. I want to focus some of my energy and time, two things that are pretty precious to me, on me.  So to start? I'm doing a month-long exercise challenge. Who am I challenging you ask? Well, me. Just me. I made a calendar this morning and challenged myself to a both a 30-day squat challenge and a 30-day plank challenge. I found some guidelines online and these things both seem very doable. In fact, I can do them both while watching the aforementioned postseason baseball games. I'm also going to challenge myself to walk every day. Somedays, like today, it'll be four miles. Other days it might be two or one mile. One mile takes me 15 minutes and I can do it in my room or in the neighborhood. As long as I walk. I'm also going to keep up with a regular kettlebell/cardio routine. Angela and I have been getting better at the Jillian Michaels video we bought and yesterday I didn't feel like I would die. I'd say that's improvement.

So why the challenge? Well, I want to be healthier. I need to be healthier. I'm still dealing with lung issues from the pneumonia/penicillin problem almost 20 months ago. I'm still dealing with the residual weight gain that resulted from the month long steroid regimen that helped solve the pneumonia/penicillin problem. I'm glad to be alive but I need to be stronger and leaner and healthier. I need my heart and lungs to be working at full capacity. And so? For my birthday, I'm making this month all about me. I'm going to put aside time and make it a priority. I'm going to mark off the items on my calendar just as I mark off the items on my work to-do list.

So here's to a great October! Here's to birthday month! Here's to me! Game on!

Say Cheese!

I was walking down the Third Street Promenade in Santa Monica over Labor Day weekend when I saw the sign in the Mac Store window advertising a free digital photography class. I snapped a picture of the information (yep, I'm even too lazy to put a note in my phone now) and fast forward to this week -- when I found myself sitting in that Mac Store, waiting for the class to begin.

I was excited. A) The class was free. B) I love all things Mac. And C) I love taking pictures. Love love love. I have since I was little. When I was in 8th grade I went to Fine Arts Camp in Port Huron and my emphasis was photography. That week I got to take pictures on a real, grown up camera (remember, this was before iPhones and Instagram and digital anything) and spent most of my time in the darkened bathhouse developing my black and white prints. I can still remember what it smelled like, the chemicals and that musty old building. It was amazing.

In college I lived with a photographer, Kelly, and so I spent many a long winter night holed up in the developing lab with her. I'd go to keep her company and help however I could. I still have two of the prints she made of our college house hanging in my living room today.

For me photographs are all about remembering, capturing, engraving moments in time. They're about those stolen smiles and those awesome shots and those funny pictures you laugh at each time you see them no matter how many times you've seen them before. I have this picture of Angela and my mom on the swing in our yard a few summers back that makes me smile just thinking about it. I have another picture of Emma, one of the grandneighbors, hiding in an old pickle crock, and it instantly transports me back to afternoons full of hide and seek and giggles. I have a picture of my parents and Mom #2 dancing the night away that I used as a jumping off point for a script. To me, that picture is the last memory I have while the world was okay.

I have pictures of my grandparents and family and friends scattered throughout my house and just recently I've started a wall of canvases (two walls really) of photographs from home, from Michigan, that I've taken. Pictures that might not mean anything to anyone else but pictures remind me where I came from and what it most important in this world.

The wall of canvases has begun

So course I want to learn more. I want to be a better photographer. I want to take amazing pictures in Paris next year. I want to have to crop less and shoot more. I want to learn how to run my camera and what to look for in another. And this class? It helped me get an awesome jump on all that. It was run by the owners of Digital 1 to 1, an online photography curriculum designed for regular people who want to take extraordinary photos. They spent an hour explaining composition, why you might need a flash on a sunny day outdoors, what megapixels are, and how to buy the right camera for what you want to do. It was great.

I love pictures. Each time we went home this summer we pulled out old photo books and sifted through them. We were looking for specific shots of my grandparents but we were also remembering. We were laughing and oohing and ahhing. We told stories and shared memories. We were there. For a moment, we were back to that place, saying cheese and being together. It was magic.

And the notes go on...

This morning I spent a very nice hour sitting at my desk talking about my sitcom pilot with a very nice woman via Skype. We discussed the story, the characters, the tone, TVLand shows, pilots, even whether or not a woman leaving a woman for a man is funnier than a woman leaving a woman for another woman or for no reason at all.

Just a regular notes session.

After the table read of a few weeks ago, I've just had the script for my sitcom pilot sitting here on my desk, staring at me. Yes, it's on top of the pile above the female arson investigator pilot needing a rewrite and the baseball pilot that doesn't need a rewrite but just needs to get made so it can't go away and be forgotten just yet. Yes, it's got a few scribbled notes on it. And no, I didn't know what to do with it next.

So Producer Extraordinaire Sonora suggested we have someone she's worked with in the past read through it, a sitcom consultant/writer, who's very good. And of course, I jumped at the chance. A) I love it when anyone, anywhere wants to read what I've written. B) If they want to read it and discuss it, all the better. And C) See above. I didn't know what to do with it next.

So I sent her the script earlier this week and fast forward to today. And the notes meeting. And no, she didn't comment on commas or phrases or anything like that. We were talking big picture things. And it was pretty great.

First she asked me to tell her the story in my own words. Which I'm getting better at, by the way. I'm not at pitching to the network good level yet but I'm getting there. I talked about why we're meeting these characters on this particular day and why they are all together in one story. I talked about their personalities and choices and motivation. I talked about jokes and throwaways and little asides. And she asked questions. Lots and lots of questions.

She told me what bumped with her, what she had to go back and read several times to understand, and what seemed muddy. And then at the end, after I had pages and pages of scribbled upon legal pad paper, I asked her my final questions: Is the script funny? Is the story good?

I held my breath as she answered. I wasn't nervous, just curious. Sometimes when you write alone in a room you truly don't know what works and what doesn't. I often love what I've written (as opposed to many writers I know who hate every single thing on their pages). I write things that move me, interest me, make me laugh. And then sometimes you take that script out into the world and have people read it but those people all know you and genuinely like or love you and are biased. Even if they don't realize it. Or they want to work with you and maybe don't want to hurt your feelings or burn bridges. So feedback can be tricky.

And I'm not saying that someone who's been paid to give it isn't going to be biased. There's definitely a customer provider relationship here. But...at some point you have to trust.

She said that the concept is strong. She said that it's genuinely funny. She said that the work I need to do is all underneath and perhaps people who've read it don't have notes because my dialogue and jokes are well done. She likened it to a sketch that needs to be turned into a painting. I like that idea. It'll still be recognizable when I'm done but it'll be so much more focused and brighter. It'll be complete.

Do I have to take her notes? Listen to what she said? No.

Do I want to make my script better? Yes.

And that means listening. Listening when it's read out loud. Listening when people give me suggestions or tell me what they don't get. Listening when the voice in my head says, "You know, she's right about that."

So what's next? Another draft. And then more notes. And probably another draft. And more notes. And the notes will go on and on and on until we're standing on a sound stage giving notes to the actors. And those notes need to be crystal clear so I'd better get painting...

Go Big or Go Home, said the writer

Saturday Angela and I trekked out to North Hollywood and found the lovely, large, Academy of Television Arts & Sciences campus. I'd never been up there and I was impressed. Theater, offices, what appeared to be an airport set from the 1940s which was actually a pre-Emmy party theme, just a very cool place. We wound our way into the theater and settled in for PrimeCuts, the panel discussion of Emmy-nominated editors hosted by Shawn Ryan (creator and writer of many amazing television shows such as The Shield, Chicago Code, etc.).

After Angela and Shawn found their way to the restrooms (apparently they bonded over a lack of signage) the panel began. And it was quite the afternoon. We heard from a woman who's been one of Woody Allen's editors since Annie Hall and who was nominated for her work this year on Louie. We heard from reality show editors (no, nothing is apparently staged on Project Runway!) and Mad Men editors (nominated for his first episode of the show) and several others.

Shawn Ryan (moderator), Susan Morse (Louie), Alexandre de Franceschi (Top of the Lake), Chris Heller (Conan), Lisa Trulli (Project Runway), Chris Peterson (Richard Pryor: Omit the Logic), Chris Figler (Mad Men)

What I love most about this panel (this is the second year in a row we've gone) is that the editors talk as much about crafting story as any writers I've ever heard speak. They talk about how important it is to build empathy and create the character on screen whether through action or dialogue. They talk about how important it is to create a story, not just cut together footage. I love that. And my hope is some day soon I'll be sitting in an editing booth alongside one of these amazing television professionals.

Then last night I headed into Hollywood to attend Sublime Primetime, a panel discussion with Emmy-nominated writers. This is one of my favorite industry events each year. Last night was cool because not only did I get to hear lots of crazy, cool stories from the people who bring you The Daily Show, Breaking Bad, and The Office, among other things, I also ran into a few friends! Sometimes L.A. can be a small town!

A common theme I heard last night from several writers was the idea of "Go Big or Go Home". This was particular to Breaking Bad and The Office but I've heard the sentiment a lot lately. It's one I subscribe to in other areas of my life but just recently started thinking about it in writing terms. It's the idea that you should leave nothing on the table, no story point should be saved for another season or another episode even. Write your characters into a corner, push your plot to the breaking point, do everything before those few precious primetime moments are gone. Because there's no guarantee you'll be back next week or next year.

I see this on TV more and more lately, particularly with cable shows. Just when you have no idea how a character could possibly come back from X, Y, or Z - he or she does. And I love that. None of us in life are guaranteed a tomorrow. Society rallies around the "You Only Live Once" and "Live Like There's No Tomorrow" philosophies. So writers should too.

At the end of the panel last night someone asked the writers what's next. Many of them have fires in the oven but a few were just happy to be enjoying this ride, this weekend, whatever the Emmy-envelope shall bring forth Sunday night. But I can't imagine I'm the only one, sitting down to work on a pilot today, who isn't thinking of the "Go Big or Go Home" adage. So here goes...

Richard LaGravenese (Behind the Candelabra), Lizzie & Wendy Molyneux (Bob's Burgers), Greg Daniels (The Office), Larry Wilmore (moderator), Kevin Bleyer (The Daily Show with Jon Stewart), Erica Oyama (Burning Love), George Mastras (Breaking Bad)

Twelve Years Later

When Angela mentioned Patriot Day last week I said, "What?" For the life of me I didn't remember that 9/11 had been renamed. (And as of last year it's now Patriot Day and National Day of Service and Remembrance). Generations down the line will call it that maybe (well Patriot Day anyway, that last part is a mouthful), although it will take some time for us to drop the ominous tone in our voice that distinguishes September Eleventh from September Tenth or any other day of the year. It may never happen, and I suppose that's okay. Right even.

It's been 12 years.

And yet? It seems like yesterday.

And yet? It seems a like a lifetime ago.

The students in Angela's sixth grade class weren't born the day the towers fell. They don't recall first hand watching the Pentagon burn on television or hearing of the brave women and men in the air. Take that in for a second.

Yeah. I can't fathom it either. But it's true.

And yet, their lives are still affected by that day. Just as mine is. Just as yours is. Each year 9/11 becomes a little more of our history, a little less of our reality but still, it's there. When we travel. When we take the elevator up a tall building. When we watch the news and hear words like air strikes and chemical weapons and terrorist attacks. It's there.

And yet? It's not.

Twelve years is a long time. A lifetime for some of us. I've lived in three states, four places, had over a dozen jobs, written thousands of pages of prose, scripts and news copy. It's a long time.

Do we still all remember exactly where we were that Tuesday morning? Of course. In fact, at the dinner party following my table read two weeks ago somehow the topic came up and we went around the room, telling our stories. It's a part of who we are, what we've become, individually and collectively.

Do I wish it had never happened? Certainly. Without a doubt. But am I thankful for the aftermath and how that has affected, even changed, my life? Yes, I think so. In grad school I studied group communication in depth and I learned how groups (be they corporations, families, friends, communities, any group really) come to be. There's the stages of forming, storming and norming. And for us? Collectively -- whether in small groups or large, that was a day and the period that followed it, of weathering those storms and becoming a group. Becoming better as a whole and as one.

Twelve years is quite a milestone. To look how far we've come and yet, how far we've gone, is important. Do I need to watch the clips of that day over and over? No. And if some do, that's what they need. But for me? Today is about remembering, celebrating, and knowing that we've come this far because on September Eleventh I'm not sure any of us thought we'd see another day, let alone 4,383 days.

A little fanatical...

VERY IMPORTANT UPDATE! 
A picture has been found! I repeat, a picture has been found! 

Verified proof of us at Tiger Stadium! 

A few weeks ago my dad found an old church directory that had a picture of a group of us at a Tiger game! He scanned the picture and voila! Here we all are. You can see me in the front row, next to Dad and Mom and Cousin John. Then two rows back you can see my Grandpa and Grandma Boutell! Love it! (Not sure where Ang is, my guess is she's off with Cousin Nicole and my Aunt Marie somewhere since Uncle Kim is there in the second row without Aunt Marie.) 

So yay! Yay for memories and fun pictures and Tiger games with friends and family! Here's to more of them in the future!

As many of you know, last year something happened to me.

I became a baseball fan.

Yes, I'd enjoyed baseball before last year. I went to my first Detroit Tigers game sometime before the old Tiger Stadium came down. Here's the proof:

I asked my dad if he had any pictures of us at the games and this was it. Out of all the photo books in all the world (we have a lot of photo books, a lot), this was the only picture of our trips to Tiger Stadium. It's not a bad picture. It's a lovely capture of the day -- what I can only imagine was a beautiful Saturday afternoon game. Maybe some of the guys in the picture are Alan Trammell, Lou Whitaker, Kirk Gibson, Willie Hernandez, even Sparky Anderson coming out to argue a call. Maybe that's the back of my head as I'm eating peanuts, reveling in the very cool charter bus ride we'd had into Detroit. It's my dad's writing on the back of the photo, so I can be sure of where we were at least. (Ah, the days before a camera in our pocket 24/7 and capturing every single moments of our lives on a data byte.) I'd like to think we were enjoying the game way too much to be bothered to take a quick family shot. Yes, that's what I'll choose to believe.

So, I've enjoyed baseball for a while. When we weren't going to Detroit for a game, you could find us on Thursday evenings in the summer cheering on my dad and his friends who played softball for the church league. Here's that proof:

Our friend Lisa, my sister Angela, and Me! 

And later on, once Lansing added the minor league Lugnuts in the mid-90s, we made their games a regular part of our summers. It didn't really matter who we rooted for, if you were playing in Michigan, you were the home team.

Then I went away to college and baseball became a once a summer trip to a Lugnuts game with my parents and their friends. I made it to the new Tigers stadium, Comerica Park, on an alumni trip one summer with a college friend after I'd moved to Arizona but baseball fell off the radar. I'd catch playoff games on TV if the Tigers were playing but that was it. Until the last few years...

Two years ago I got the idea to write a television pilot set in the world of baseball. And not little league or the minors or high school. Professional major league baseball. In Detroit. And that's when it all began.

Hundreds of hours of research. Listening to old games online. Watching any game that played on TV. Reading books about managers and owners and statistics. (I still don't understand all the numbers. I never will. And I'm perfectly okay with that. You do not need to try to "teach me". Really. Don't.) Watching the few Tiger games we got on cable over and over again. And that was the beginning of the end.

The word fan comes from the Latin word fanatical which is marked by excessive enthusiasm and often intense devotion. Do t-shirts, sweatshirts, waterbottles, Tervis glasses, bracelets, pins, hats, apps, paid MLB TV subscriptions, calendars, satellite TV subscription for pre- and post-game shows count as excessive? 

Well, yeah, there you have it. Also, we made it to four games at Comerica Park in the span of six weeks while in Michigan. We'd have gone more but we really like those good seats, where you can see the players actually playing, and well, the Tigers don't pay us fans quite like they do those guys wearing the uniforms. 

So I became a fan. I also became a fantasy football, er, baseball league manager. (I call it fantasy football and no amount of correcting seems to stick in my brain, c'est la vie.) I joined a friend's league in the middle of July. I didn't even know such a thing existed before then. I thought fantasy was just for football and those horribly long books about trolls. (Don't yell at me, I'm just not a fan of them.) And what's the first thing I did on my FF team? 

Traded for all the Tigers I could get my hands on. 

Yep. Smart move right? Sure. When the Tigers are on a winning streak. I moved up from eighth to second place quickly. I "smack talked" on the boards. My friends congratulated me. And then? My plan backfired. I'm back in seventh place. Maybe having a team that's 75% Tigers isn't the best move. But? I'm a fan. What can I say.

And now it's football season. If you know me, you know I hate football. I find it boring. I find it confusing. I find it boring. Did I mention I find it boring. Did in high school when I went to almost every game wearing my letterman jacket and freezing my buns off on those aluminum benches. Did in college when our team (I think we had a team, we at least had guys who dressed up like a team) was horrible. I went to one game, stayed half an hour and headed back to the library. Did in grad school when I spent hours cleaning Waldo Stadium after the games as a fundraiser for our campus ministry. There was no way I could ever enjoy a game there watching thousands of people trash the bleachers I'd spend the next six hours climbing with my garbage bags. And I still don't get it. I've been known to inquire about Detroit's Lions (yes, Detroit has a football team, and no, that joke isn't funny even after the thousandth time I've heard it) from time to time. My dad watches them occasionally and he'll give me the ten-second update (they suck, what's new). I've seen my share of Thanksgiving Day games because it's more of a tradition then a game. But this year? I'm trying...and failing...to like football.

I was asked to join a fantasy football (I got it right this time!) team with the same friends who have the FB team. I told them I know less than nothing about football. They told me I was a warm body and that's all they needed. So I joined. And I got my sister Angela and my friend Susie to join. (Angela is team me in hating football. Susie is team football is awesome. She is trying to recruit us. It won't happen.) And we had our draft. My strategy? Pick two players I'd read about in national magazines (Time, I'm looking at you). They were cute. They seemed to be in the spotlight. I chose a few others who had good rankings on the site as well. And then? Let autodraft do the rest. (I did choose Detroit as my offense, or defense, I don't know really but I did it because, well, #DETROITpride people.) All in all, I put an hour into this endeavor, maybe two.

So what happened? Angela let autodraft pick her team. She spent maybe two minutes on the endeavor and all of that time was trying to remember her username and password that she'd set up a week earlier and promptly forgotten. And she got an A- on her draft. My score? D. And two of the players that were autodrafted for me? Free agents. Seriously. For the record, I still hate football. And if my FF team wins? I'll crow like nobody's business. But more than likely? I'll check my ranking once a week and forget about it the rest of time. Because, well, baseball isn't over and well, baseball's baseball. There's nothing else to say about that.

So. I'm a fan. I play fantasy football twice a year. I root for Detroit above anyone else. Who wants to come over for a game? 

Susie, Me, Angela -- I passed my fanaticism onto both of them and now we're all too far gone...

60 years - Grandpa and Grandma Cows part two

Sixty years ago today Bette Bartlett Knapp (I guess she was still a Knapp then, I don't know, and never thought to ask until it was too late) married Jim Boutell. I don't know where this wedding happened. I don't know if it was in Michigan or at a courthouse or a church or anything. To the best of the family's recall, they don't know either. It's possible my dad was at the ceremony but since he looked like this after they were married, he doesn't remember.

Tommy Knapp, Bette Boutell, Terry Knapp, Jim Boutell

I wish I had thought to ask more questions, and we did ask a lot. But there was just so much to cover. Sixty years. And that was just with Grandpa Jim. The boys in this black and white picture? They were from her first marriage to my Grandpa Bill. That's a lot of life to cover. And we never think about discussing it until it's too late. By the time Grandpa had passed and we started talking that last week, the answers had eroded and the tales had grown a little taller. But that's okay. The stories will stay with me and they'll be mixed up a little and added too and they'll be shared. And that's what life's about, sharing our stories. Even when they're not our own.

Here's what I do remember, the laughter.

The anniversary parties at our house, at the Pretzel Bell and MSU children's gardens, the cakes and the smiles and the laughter. Always laughter. Even when things were hard. Grandma and Grandpa did not have a perfect marriage, from my limited view I'm not sure anyone does, just as none of us has perfect relationships. But they kept at it. For a very long time. To me, that means something.

There were four kids between them. There were at least seven apartments and houses that I remember. There were grandkids galore. There was farming and General Motors and Sears and the schools and the church and growing old together. There was cancer and heart attacks and strokes and dying mothers and divorces. There was so much in that sixty years. And I was only there for a fraction of it.

But here's what I remember most vividly: Hot July afternoons on the farm. Grandpa coming home from work for lunch and clicking on the little black and white TV in the kitchen to find CBS at 12:30pm for The Young and the Restless. Even though Grandma had it on in the living room on the big color set. Eating fresh veggies and hot rolls and peanut butter. Them not saying much to each other because it didn't have to be said. It was a finely tuned, over thousands of practices, orchestra. It just worked. The hour would pass and Grandpa would head back out and as hard as I try, I can't remember if there was a kiss or a hug or a kind word. Chances are there wasn't. Chances are it was just part of the song. The leaving, the returning in a few hours to do it all again. It was just life. And they seemed to make the most of it, day in and day out.

My grandparents didn't get their sixty years together here on earth. They were just a few weeks shy when grandpa passed away. But a few weeks is not really important. What's important is the life they lived, together, for better or worse, here. And knowing that they must be having a big party (or maybe just eating rolls together watching their program) up in heaven today.

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Grandma and Grandpa Cows - only part one

I have a list of blogs on my to-do list to write. I had great intentions to keep up with my writing this summer while in Michigan but then one month turned into almost two and things got, well, complicated. Add that to the fact that as soon as I was finished with work every day (on the computer, remember, I teach online) the last thing I wanted to do was stay behind the keyboard. There were grandneighbors to play with, baseball games to go to, bonfires to ignite and people to talk to. Always, so many people. I love that about home.

So I didn't blog a lot. And I'll try to do some remembering posts this fall. Goodness, it's fall already, isn't it. It seems strange. Mostly because it's 100 degrees here in Los Angeles and I'm literally sweating as I type this. But this is week four of school for Angela and her kiddos and it's September. There's talk of Halloween and baseball playoffs and all things crunchy leaved.

But as I get back into the groove of being behind my desk (which is different then being behind just the keyboard - I even have a new big time desk chair, with arms!) and at the computer, I'm feeling the need to write again. Because for me? Writing is life. Writing is like breathing. Writing is who I am and what I am and what I do. I write. It's that simple.

Plates Angela and I (and obviously Mom) made that hung in my grandparents' houses for years. They were Grandma and Grandpa Cows because, well, they had cows at their house when we were little. For kids, it's as simple as that.

But what's not so simple is the emotional side of things. In the past two months I've been, well, very emotional. I lost my grandfather in July. And then we buried him on a Monday. Angela and I were home for the funeral and home for the following week as it was still summer vacation. We spent so much time with my grandma that week. And it was such good time. We went out to lunch. We listened to stories. We cried. We laughed. Oh god did we laugh. It was so good. And then when we hugged goodbye on Friday I figured on the next trip we'd hear all about her planned casino escapade and her new girlfriends at her apartment complex. She couldn't wait to hear more about my pilot and my writing and she was excited that the Tigers were in contention for the pennant.

But that was all before the heart attack. And then? She passed away on August 17th.

I've lost grandparents before. I only have one left. (I started out life with six and a few great grandparents to boot.) But before I was younger. Or I didn't see my grandfather as much. But now I've lost the two grandmothers who have been a daily part of my life. I still reach to call the grandmother who's been gone several years. And now? Who am I supposed to call on Tuesday mornings?

She read every blog post I ever wrote. I know this because when I didn't post as frequently as she'd like she'd let me know. She read my screenplays and my novel. She told her friends about me and once spent quite some time bragging that I am friends with a celebrity to a cable repair man who could have cared less. When I called (she never called but she loved to talk on the phone, so much so) she'd be full of questions and comments and I knew that even though she feigned bad eye site she was hawkeye when it came to scouring her email and my Facebook page.

I really don't know what to do now. I feel like she's still out there. And I know, in a way she is. But I can't call her on the phone. I can't take her donuts from Quality Dairy anymore. I can't hear her say my name or give me a hug only a grandmother can give. Was it all good? Hardly. So much of it wasn't. But it's hard to remember that when all you can think of is the good. And right now the good is hard. Very hard.

So what do I do? (After wiping away the tears that are falling right now?) I check off the box marked 'blog about death'. I had no idea what this blog would be about when I started writing. Because, as I said, I'm simply breathing right now. I want to write more about these people who have been such a part of my thirty-plus years. But right now, all I can think about is how they're gone.

I've been around death my entire life. I lost brothers before I was old enough to realize I had brothers. I lost a grandfather before I hit double digits. My family owned a funeral home and we went to a big church and I was a regular at visitations and funerals before I ever knew exactly what they were. I've eaten and delivered my share of funeral ham. More than my share.

So, I guess this is a blog about death. It's been weighing so heavily on me for months that I felt like I needed to exhale deeply and let it all out. What ever it all is. And for today, I'm going to think that maybe there's a really good Ethernet cable connection in heaven and Grandma's reading this on a new laptop. And then maybe she'll get a good win in a game of solitaire. Then maybe the tears will stop for a while.

The first time through

Saturday night was our first time through. We'd all read the script before. Angela had. Sonora had. Even Susie, visiting from Michigan for the weekend, had read it. But we hadn't heard it. And there's a difference.

A huge difference.

Novels are meant to be read. They're usually long-winded (in the best of ways) and descriptive. Poems follow organizational patterns so that you can feel the words (yes, even poems that seem to have no rhyme or reason, they have a pattern, just ask the seventh graders who've had Ms. Knapp or Ms. Knapp for language arts). Newspaper articles supply information without color. But scripts?

They're meant to be heard. They're meant to be seen. They're meant to be experienced.

So Saturday night eight of us gathered around Sonora's big long dining room table, scripts in hand, and experienced a story.

And it was awesome.

Yes, I'd read the dialogue out loud countless times. I read it for cadence and proofreading and characters voices and jokes. But I had yet to read it to "see" the story.

Sonora had gathered a group of awesome actors from her travels around Hollywood and they were all very game to play along. They didn't just read their parts as us writers are prone to do when we sit in on a table read. They were their parts. They acted, as actors do. It was pretty freaking cool.

There was slurred speech for the drunk. There was yelling and pounding on the table at one point. There was whispering and laughing. Oh, yes, there was laughing. (My favorite part. I made hardly any notes on my script that night but I made lots of smiley faces - every laugh or chuckle or smile gets a smiley face. Smiley faces are king in the sitcom world.)

And Angela got to read the stage directions which was pretty cool - I love how excited every one was. Everyone. Those of us listening, those of us acting. It was just, a very cool night.

And then?

We feasted on the lovely dinner Sonora made. We drank wine and cracked open the champagne I bought (it had a screw top - maybe by the time we film the pilot I'll have figured out how to buy champagne that pops!). We sat around late into the night talking and laughing and listening. We shared our stories. We shared others stories. We laughed over the superhero audition video some poor boy in England had mistakenly sent to Sonora's wife. We all reluctantly ended the evening, hoping sometime to spend another night just as happy.

So, it was a success. A big one in my book.

And now? What's next...

The Screenwriter & The Producer/Actress

Well, that's the thing. We're not sure. There will be rewrites and notes and discussions and more rewrites. There will be work. That's for sure. There will be hustling around town to get meetings and move forward. Lots of work. But Saturday night?

That was just plain fun. Something I'd waited five years to experience. Something I'd had a hard time even imagining. And yet? There is was. I have a recording on my iPhone to prove it. Time to listen to those laughs one more time...